As the title suggests, we are about to embark on cycle 9 of trying to conceive baby number 3. I won’t lie and say I am totally relaxed about it all as at the end of cycle 8 I cried and cried. If you saw my instagram you’ll have seen that I was about 3 or four days late before I was finally put out of my misery, actually I was put into misery, by Mother Nature. Life can be cruel. I am never usually that late. Why wasn’t I late when I was in Barcelona and my cycle decides to end ON MY 30TH BIRTHDAY?!
Anyway, it’s taken me a few weeks to bring myself to face the fact that I’m still not pregnant. I can’t help think that if we had caught when we first started trying then I would be due very soon. I try and stay relaxed during the month but the last week or two and I go a little bit mental looking for symptoms which, as I’m sure some of you know, are very similar to PMS symptoms.
Over the last few weeks I have learnt of a friend who has become pregnant which is amazing news as she and her hubby to be are amazing with children but it’s pretty hard to not be obsessed and talk baby talk ALL the time. I swear she thinks I am going to steal her baby. I’ve also spent some time with my husbands niece who is also pregnant and had a bit of a rough time with the sickness and all. Being around her helps as it reminds me not to be in such a rush to feel so tired and sickly all the time!
On the up side we booked a holiday earlier this week. We’d always planned to take some kind of holiday in 2015 but due to work and baby plans being a bit all over the place we’d held off. Our lovely friends in Telford had booked a week or so in Cyprus at the end of August and I said how much I’d love to go as I’ve never been to Cyprus yet everyone I know raves about the place. Anyway, after much discussion hubby and I decided it was stupid to book a holiday at the end of August when the temperatures at its peak and we may well have a newborn baby. So, sensibility prevailed and we booked for April. We’re off to Fuerteventura! Hurrah!!! We’ve not told Logan yet but he will be over.the.moon! It’s something to look forward to once the NY is over and done with.
I guess, looking at it, I have kind of relaxed a bit on the TTC front. I have run out of Pregnacare supplements and not bothered replacing, I have stopped logging when we do a little ‘baby dance’ and I have stopped using the forums. I’m also busier then I have been previously as Florence is out of nursery more, so although I am working in my day job less I have more ‘running around’ to do with the little madam. It’s just come to the end of Baby Loss Awareness Week and I send all my love and best wishes to those who I know either personally or through social media who have suffered a loss. It makes me feel greedy writing posts like this when I know people have conceived and lost. It also makes me count my blessings and realise life isn’t that bad.